He says it could have been something i said
or didn't do
that drove [them] out of my life.
i'm getting really hot so i turn away and swallow this little white pill that i have.
"you're being rude. I'm trying to help you," he says.
i know that and press my palms into my eyes until they ache.
my eyes are dull and i don't know how to be happy anymore.
He sits down on the floor next to me and i think he might hold my hand, but he'll never do that.
"Let's go grab a drink."
i don't say anything.
"It'll help," he promises.
i know that too.
"I've never broken a promise to you." He says he's not like him [them]. "Give Me more credit."
i don't give him anything because the white pill is starting to work and i'm finally in a white place where he [they] can't come.