Thursday, February 24

Crestfallen is a juicy word.

Little Women, which I’m supposed to have read over a week ago, is still sitting in my bag somewhere. The book has such a weird shape, and the laptop case I carry around really can’t hold much more than, well, a laptop, so it’s stuffed in one of the back pockets.
Before I left this morning, Jude started speaking to me. (Jude Law’s voice is my conscious/narrator.) Rae, he said, Little Women is a classic, praised all over the world for it’s… well, actually, I’m not sure why. But that’s because you don’t know why. I don't even like this book either. Why don't you look it up on SparkNotes? You’ll have to figure out some way to avoid all the ads—
He never sounds right when he voices my thoughts. They get too distracted and, more often than not, are superfluous to what I had intended to tell myself in the first place. He stopped talking for my sake, which really didn’t help. I mean, there’s a reason I chose his voice to listen to all day.
I’m looking at the mountains and the grey sky as I type this sentence. Like, right now I’m staring at them. They remind me of why I started writing and how gloriously talented I am at ignoring that book.
I really want to eat my fish crackers, but it’s too quiet.
I push the button on my computer that tells me what the weather is going to be like for the next week: little raindrops inside the snow.
That’s on the next day, too.
And then snowflakes… snowflakes… snowflakes… the word ‘crestfallen’ pops into my head for some reason… snowflakes. In a cheap way, it’s kind of ironic that all the snowflakes look the same.
Jude laughs.


Wednesday, February 2

Honestly. Vile. Abhorrent. REVOLTING.

Whenever my parents went on one of their many trips to Europe, I would stay at a friends house.
She would play The Nutcracker so we could go to sleep dreaming of sugar plum fairies, despite the fact that it was summer outside.
The Nutcracker is very relaxing.
However, my friend falls asleep super fast.
I don't.
So I would lay (or is it 'lie', anyone know?) for hours listening to lovely trilling flutes and all that jazz (not jazz. Classical...)
on the first night I slept over, I found out that when The Nutcracker CD ends, it's replaced with...
Simon and Garfunkel.
And not just Simon and Garfunkel,
but the song Mrs. Robinson.
Over and over and over again MRS. ROBINSON.
I would lay/lie/lye awake every night, listening to that dreaded intro to the song with the twangy guitar and the "dee dee dee doo doo doo..."
You can hear it, can't you?
Only now am I realizing that I really really love Simon and Garfunkel's music.
Especially Sound of Silence.
Though I'm not a fan of Cecelia.
And I still refuse to listen to MRS. ROBINSON.
I haven't even seen The Graduate, but I almost sure I already hate Mrs. Robinson with a passion.
See, isn't it annoying seeing her name over and over again?
You really wouldn't think I would still be bitter about it, but I still hear the song when I'm just barely falling unconscious.
Which may finally give us an explanation for my issues with sleep.
...and Dustin Hoffman.

And here's to you, Mrs. Robinson...
I REALLY hate you more than you could know.


P.S. (Wo, wo, wo...)